U-Haul!

hello!!

as you may have guessed from the title, I'm moving again...... no where new......back to where i came from. And then I'm going away for sometime...where you might ask? LAGOS BAY BEE!!! in all honesty i know the transition is not going to be easy. Shock to the system pops to mind!! but its long overdue. i just need to have my OWN space again.... even if I'll probably have to share it with a few mosquitoes....cockroaches (shivers) and all the other nastiness that comes with being back "home".
Even with all that the Pros currently out weight the cons... Being around family.... good food (read SUYA!) plus my cousin is getting Married!! i cannot believe it..... as much as i am looking forward to it......it just means all the when are we meeting "him" questions will be coming at me hard and fast! lol..... As much as i am anticipating this trip i am dreading everything that is essential i.e PACKING! what do i take what do i leave behind (esp. as my ticket is prob going to b one way... Eeeeeeeekkkk) i'm looking at my salon bag and that alone must weight 4-5 kg and thats not even all of it! (don't ask.....ok if you must know i'm taking better "care" of my hair) if thats just hair what about the necessities... clothes, shoes & BAGS! i am afraid of all those obtainers...but i can't go looking like a RAGA MUFFIN...lol... it'll probably have to be like my last trip where my most treasured items (read 99.97% ) of my stuff was in safe keeping aka hiding aka mommy's room; but that was for 2 weeks i wonder how well it will work since i'm staying longer...hhmmmmppphhhh.... Guess i'll just have to wait and see.... how will i live without my GRAZIA et ELLE? i'm seriously thinking about having a friend dhl them to me every month..i kiddddd... who dash monkey bannana...
on another note i need to buy another camera (other 1 got stolen :( ) i got this BANGING dress from h&m its like an identical twin to the one from american apparel (the u-neck one....well the neck isn't exactly u...but who cares...bodycon is bodycon) but at a fraction of the price!! i need to go back and get all the other colours...what (wo)man cannot live on bread alone! i don't know what i was thinking buying just black! anyway i also want some acidwash skinnies so I'll just pick one up....if all fails...a DIY is in order.. i have being living in this bloody london for the last 5 years GOD knows i need to be able to rock all these things the way the are meant to be rocked without a blazer (shit but that means my red Ralph won't be making its debut...except i want to look as foolish as the okada guy i saw wearing a fur coat last time i was there...lol silverbird used to be cold...that was b4 i started living in obodoyibo..so maybe not anymore? I'll just take it sha you never know!) or tights...the mosquitoes will probably have a fun time feasting but I'm going prepared with my insect repellent...i just hope i don't forget to buy some :P
anyhow i must finish packing so i can sleep as long as possible.... i don't understand how I've acquired so much in so little time.... and i haven't even been shopping...well not that MUCH!!!


Techicolour Dreams xx

i sit here wondering where it went wrong..... you are my oldest friend.. so i called you my 'best friend' however, truth be told you are not and you never were. something a friend of a friend said comes to mind : just because you've known someone your whole life does not a friend make. this is something i see now. the things you did and said shocked me..i don't know why considering how you can be towards people..towards 'people'? yes but not towards me?

this has been a learning experience and despite the hurt i feel i am grateful to be able to see the relationship we have for what it really is. i have always known that I was my own best friend and not too depend or put too much faith in people because it is inevitable that they will let you down at one point or the other.. i am not saying i am the best friend i could possibly be. i might not return calls on time or i might want to be on my own more than most but i would NEVER treat you the way you treated me and this i know with all my heart!

its a shame that we are this close (physically) but yet SO far apart we might as well be in different countries.. i have so much on my mind..so much i am going through..so much i would like to share but you have made it clear that you are not interested. so I'll keep it inside, nod and smile like everything is alright.. but its not. cos if i could leave i would be gone in a heartbeat!
but i am going to be here for a while so til then its nods, smiles and meaningless conversations about everything but the things that are actually important.

x